It has been over a year since I've posted anything on here. I even went so far as to remove my blog during that time. The past few years have been very difficult for me, and the past year has been especially difficult. I can look back on my life and state unequivocally that this has been the worst year of my life by far. There have been great moments, but they are often overshadowed or tainted by the bad moments.
I have moved back to Florida and left all I had and knew behind. I wanted to start my life over. I knew it would be hard and would be a difficult journey. I just had no idea how hard it would really be.
There have been ups and downs, and the shift from each is quite extreme. I find myself getting my hopes up or getting excited only to be knocked back down. I keep moving forward, determined to make my own way and be the successful person I once was. But I find myself questioning everything in my life and my decisions. Should I do this? Should I do that? Is this the right thing? Is this the right time?
I've always been one to help and support others and do everything to please everyone. Along the way I have ignored myself and forgotten to make choices that make me happy and are in my best interest. Ultimately, I find myself living for others and I'm the one who always pays the price. It is a tough habit to break.
I wanted to reestablish my blog because I think not writing much the past year has denied me an outlet for my feelings and motions. Where do I go from here? I don't know. I only know that it is time I start living for me.